Tuesday, September 30, 2014


exactly, because.....'merica land of the free except,

believe that.

You have nothing to prove to anyone else, because…

1. The people worth impressing just want you to be yourself. In the long run, it’s better to be loathed for who you are than loved for who you are not. In fact, the only relationships that work well in the long run are the ones that make you a better person without changing you into someone other than yourself, and without preventing you from outgrowing the person you used to be.

Ignore the comparisons and expectations knocking at your door. The only person you should try to be better than is the person you were yesterday. Prove yourself to yourself, not others. The RIGHT people for you will love you for doing so, and they will appreciate all the things about you that the WRONG people are intimidated by. Bottom line: Don’t change so people will like you; be patient, keep being your amazing self, and pretty soon the RIGHT people will love the REAL you.

2. No one else really knows what’s best for YOU. Don’t lose yourself in your search for acceptance by others. Walk your path confidently and don’t expect anyone else to understand your journey, especially if they have not been exactly where you are going. You have to take the steps that are right for you; no one else walks in your shoes.

Let others take you as you are, or not at all. Speak your truth even if your voice shakes. By being true to yourself, you put something breathtaking into the world that was not there before. You are stunning when your passion and strength shines through as you follow your own path – when you aren’t distracted by the opinions of others. You are powerful when you let your mistakes educate you, and your confidence builds from firsthand experiences – when you know you can fall down, pick yourself up, and move forward without asking for anyone else’s permission. (Read Awaken the Giant Within.)

3. YOU are the only person who can change YOUR life. In every situation you have ever been in, positive or negative, the one common thread is you. It is your responsibility, and yours alone, to recognize that regardless of what has happened up to this point in your life, you are capable of making choices to change your situation, or to change the way you think about it. Don’t let the opinions of others interfere with this prevailing reality.

What you’re capable of achieving is not a function of what other people think is possible for you. What you’re capable of achieving depends entirely on what you choose to do with your time and energy. So stop worrying about what everyone else thinks. Just keep living your truth. The only people that will fault you for doing so are those who want you to live a lie.

4. Society’s materialistic measurement of worth is worthless. When you find yourself trapped between what moves you and what society tells you is right for you, always travel the route that makes you feel alive – unless you want everyone to be happy, except you. No matter where life takes you, big cities or small towns, you will inevitably come across others who think they know what’s best for you – people who think they’re better than you – people who think happiness, success and beauty mean the same things to everyone.

They’ll try to measure your worth based on what you have, instead of who you are. But you know better than that – material things don’t matter. Don’t chase the money. Catch up to the ideas and activities that make you come alive. Go for the things of greater value – the things money can’t buy. What matters is having strength of character, an honest heart, and a sense of self-worth. If you’re lucky enough to have any of these things, never sell them. Never sell yourself short.

5. Life isn’t a race; you have nothing to prove. Everyone wants to get to the top of the mountain first and shout, “Look at me! Look at me!” But the truth is, all your happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing, not while you’re sitting at the top. Enjoy the journey by paying attention to each step. Don’t rush through your life and miss it. Forget where everyone else is in relation to you. This isn’t a race. You get there a little at a time, not all at once.

Let go of the foolish need to prove yourself to everyone else, and you’ll free yourself to accomplish what matters most to you. Sometimes you have to remind yourself that you don’t have to always be and do what everyone else is being and doing.

6. The path to all great things passes through failure. You are an ever-changing work in progress. You don’t have to always be right, you just have to not be too worried about being wrong. Screwing up is part of the process. Looking like a fool sometimes is the only way forward. If you try too hard to impress everyone else with your “perfection,” you will stunt your growth. You will spend all your time looking a certain way, instead of living a certain way.

It’s impossible to live without failing sometimes, unless you live so cautiously that you aren’t really living at all – you’re merely existing. If you’re too afraid of failing in front of others, you can’t possibly do what needs to be done to be successful in your own eyes. You have to remember that it doesn’t matter how many times you fail or how messy your journey is, so long as you do not stop taking small steps forward. In the end, those who don’t care that failure is inevitable are the ones that reach their dreams. YOU can be one of them. (Read The Last Lecture.)

7. It’s impossible to please everyone anyway. Some people will always tell you what you did wrong, and then hesitate to compliment you for what you did right. Don’t be one of them, and don’t put up with them.

When you run into someone who discredits you, disrespects you and treats you poorly for no apparent reason at all, don’t consume yourself with trying to change them or win their approval. And be sure not to leave any space in your heart to hate them. Simply walk away and let karma deal with the things they say and do, because any bit of time you spend on these people will be wasted, and any bit of hate and aggravation in your heart will only hurt you in the end.

You don’t need a standing ovation or a bestseller or a promotion or a million bucks. You are enough right now. You have nothing to prove. Care less about who you are to others and more about who you are to yourself. You will have less heartaches and disappointments the minute you stop seeking from others the validation only YOU can give yourself.

Credit: Marc and Angel Hack Life

Just do your best to keep yourself in balance. One of the first things that causes Energy misalignment, is asking or demanding too much of yourself in terms of time and effort. In other words, you just cannot burn the candle at both ends, so that you are physically tired, and then expect yourself to have a cheerful attitude. -Abraham-Hicks

everyday is opposite day

like a cosmic river....

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

The Oracle Report for WuTangWednesday, September 24, 2014

New Moon Phase: emergence of clarity

Moon in Libra

Skill: open your heart to receive wisdom; find humor

Negative Imprint: losing touch with reality, avoiding reality, perfectionism, superficial, misleading, anti-humanistic, foolishness

Positive Imprint: potential, initiation, practical, humor, purity, imagination, new paths, enlarged sphere of operation, courage, wonderment, luxury, attraction

Welcome to the New Moon in Libra and a month of the fullest light to see, realize, and understand.

At the new astrological year beginning with the New Moon in Aries on March 30, 2014, we began a new journey - a journey to hike a mountain, the mountain of life. It has taken six months to reach the peak of this mountain, but now we are here. From here we have the fullest view of the panorama. We also have the most light by which to view. Energetically, since embarking upon our journey the Moon has now grown to be Full and Full Moons provide the most light.

(If you divide the year into eight parts that parallel the eight Moon phases, this part is parallel to the Full Moon phase, so it is like a month-long Full Moon.)

In many ways, we will come to "see the light" over this cycle. Something dawns on us, mysteries are revealed, and problems are resolved. We see the truth of many things about our lives and it may be quite stark. Full light has a tendency to do this. Our job is to soften the edges and provide more luminosity than harshness of what we are seeing. If a realization comes on you strong and sharp, step back and slow down the speed. Gently take the information inside yourself to process at your own pace. Light can be directed as a laser or as a glow. The choice is ours how we want to take it.

Full light also makes people loony (which should be spelled luny). Lunacy has a tendency to show out in all kinds of ways. This will be most visible during the Full Moon phase beginning October 8, but in effect all month long. I should also note here that the next cycle, the Scorpio cycle is also like a month-long Full Moon. We have two cycles for fullest expression and illumination of energies.

The Libra cycle is a cardinal cycle because Libra is a cardinal sign. Major shifts of consciousness happen with cardinal cycles. These shifts provide opportunities and openings, and, this year, massive change. The new world order makes bigger moves during the cardinal cycles (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn) because the innate disequilibrium that results from shifting from one thing to another creates an opportunity to control the shift. We are wise to this and are focused on the shift of mass consciousness toward a world based on freedom, wisdom, beauty, and love.

Since the Libra New Moon is in aspect to the Moon's Nodes, we have a reorientation of the past - past lives and the past in this life. - into the present and projected into the future. We've worked hard to let go of painful elements of the past, but now the happier ones return. These are things that have been lost or in shadow. Follow urges from your heart to learn, create, or revive something. This may be an interest that was dropped or fell away due to past circumstances. All kinds of things from the past return this month.

The Return of Wisdom is included in this, and exchanges of spiritual knowledge will spread like wildfire. The main avenue for this is through stories. Stories are very, very important this month. If there is a story inside of you, it will want to come out this month. If the urge to write comes over you, dismiss thoughts and expectations about what will become of it. That doesn't matter right now. The creative act - expression - is what is important. What happens with the rest of it, if anything, is suspended until another day.

The energy may enter with a feeling that you have been stripped away or stripped down. It's a good way to enter the Full phase. It means you come without pretense and are ready for a "moon bath." Currents of the moon bath wash over us to bring new responses to life, new levels of awareness, and profound inner change. It is an energetic rebirth.

The energy may increase insomnia, just as it is often harder to sleep during Full Moons. If it is keeping you up, engage your imagination. Use the time for a waking dream.

The position of Mercury today tends to prompt a gloomy outlook and despair. This is part of the process toward recognition of something that is trying to be revealed to us. This happens before we start to see that things are actually getting better. A deeper spiritual connection occurs simultaneously as we see how we've been helped along the way. The process that begins with despair this month ends with profound spiritual insight. Keep this in mind when interacting with others. Some may be on the sadder end of the spectrum. You may be on the sadder end of the spectrum. That's ok because you know what's going on and can trust that this deep, inner process will bring you to light.

The New Moon phase of the Libra cycle is a time of high magic and the perfect time for a moon bath, even though the Moon is invisible right now. All things come from the dark void, and what comes this month comes back from long ago. Let there be light!

from: oraclereport.com

I saw these two big ol' owls yesterday for some reason it seemed significant, so i googled about own symbolism......

The owl spirit animal is emblematic of a deep connection with wisdom and intuitive knowledge. If you have the owl as totem or power animal, you’re likely to have the ability to see what’s usually hidden to most. When the spirit of this animal guides you, you can see the true reality, beyond illusion and deceit. The owl also offers for those who have it a personal totem the inspiration and guidance necessary to deeply explore the unknown and the magic of life. Owl Symbolism

Symbolic meanings for the owl are:

-Intuition, ability to see what others do not see
-The presence of the owl announces change
-Capacity to see beyond deceit and masks

The traditional meaning of the owl spirit animal is the announcer of death, most likely symbolic like a life transition, change

The owl spirit animal and the power to see in the dark

The owl sees in the dark: As a spirit animal, the owl guides you to see beyond the veil of deception and illusion; it helps see what’s kept hidden. It also symbolizes the ability to cut through illusions and see the real meaning of someone’s action or state of mind.

When the owl is one of your power animals, you have a strong intuition and can access information and wisdom that’s usually hidden to most. The spirit of this animal encourages you to look beyond deceiving appearances into the true reality of a situation or a person’s motives.

The owl is a strong spirit guide for discernment and making decision based solid foundations. Call on the owl totem when you have to assess a situation or are going through confusing times.

The unknown and the owl power animal

If you have an owl as a totem or spirit animal, you probably like to explore the unknown. The mysteries of life are a fascinating field of interest. As the owl guides your steps, you are likely to develop an appreciation for life’s magic.

When the owl shows up in your life, listen and look out for the subtle signs that are around you. Your animal spirit guide is a great helper to be attentive to what usually goes below your radar, but is now of particular importance.

The owl is also a guide to uncover your hidden potential and abilities. Check whether you need to reveal more of your intuitive nature.

Night time is particularly auspicious for your creativity, so take the time to focus your creative energy then.

Owl spirit animals as messengers of change

Owl spirit animals are symbolic of death in many traditions. In most cases however, it should not be taken literally: If the owl is associated with death, it can be viewed a symbolic death, meaning a transition in life, important changes that are taking place or about to happen.

When the owl shows up in your life, pay attention to the winds of change. Perhaps you are about to leave some old habits, a situation that no longer serve you or bring something new in your life.

The progression of the lunar cycle through each sign every month brings about awareness, which we use and integrate going forward into next new lunar cycle. The last lunar cycle was primarily about healing the illusions of duality and the separateness it brings. The importance this last cycle was to our collective and individual spiritual healing process. In short, the current placement of Chiron and Neptune in Pisces has been revealing to us the deep collective distortional imprints of man-made laws and religions, and the hold they have on our collective awareness. ie. the illusion that spirit and flesh are separate. That god is outside of ourselves. That we are separate from the universe and nature. That painful feeling of separateness.

The void we all carry with us on some level is ultimately the feeling of being abandoned by god (love). So with this lunar cycle we are now being asked to connect to others and bring these lessons into the world. We are being asked to choose love over fear. We are unified through the action of love. The connection that love brings to our life conquers all. Love is the universal binding element.

At the bottom line of this global awakening is the realization that we are not disconnected but deeply interconnected, and there lies the key to really healing through this New Moon in Libra.

This is an exciting time for us because for the first time since 2008, Pluto is done with the involution (breaking down) process of its passage through Capricorn. We are now very much aware of the distortions in the world and this process needed to happen. We needed to become aware of all of the outdated definitions and outmoded ways of the past. We are now entering the direct phase of, “okay let’s begin fixing this”. But we are right at the beginning so there will still be an extreme amount of uncertainty regarding the what’s and how’s. This is natural and it paradoxically drives us into new directions, to explore and figure that out.

As Pluto’s cycle moves very slowly, taking around 22 years to pass through each sign, its evolutionary appearance cannot be seen straight away as it can with nearer planetary bodies. With the gradual emergence of this energy comes the building of the new paradigm. Can you feel it? The first part of this long evolutionary journey is over. The breaking down energy has run its course, it is time to move forward.

On a personal level, Pluto, representing inner authority, has helped us truly let go of some really distorted conditionings. A fresh new me is ready to be birthed out of this current alignment. Exciting is it?

And at the bottom of this whole process lies the truth; that we live in the universe and the universe lives in us. We and the universe are connected. And by owning this truth, we are progressively taking our power back, taking our sovereignty back. Although it may be a slow and progressive process - it is still happening - and our job is to make sure we keep at it. Building on it. Being the change.

New Moon in Libra--Polarization

From an evolutionary view point, the phase after Virgo reflects to us the process where we begin to meet the world as a social equal. Libra reflects to us the need to create balance and harmony relative to extremes. It is the process of seeing things as equal through extremes, binding the illusion of separateness. In Libra we are learning how to give, not just to take. To listen to other people in a way that is true to their experience of reality instead of just filtered through our own expectations.

An intention with Libra is to learn about relativity. Where we seek to evaluate ourselves through comparing and contrasting ourselves with others. We are also, in contrast to Libra’s polarity Aries, learning to become aware of the needs and realities of other people. This reflects the Libra lesson of learning to give to other people, as in the previous growth cycle of our subjective awareness we have been taking from others.

One of the main themes that will be arising from this new moon is the increased awareness of the polarization between unity consciousness (love) and fear-based separation conscious. As Mars moves through Sagittarius this will become very apparent. The Libra theme holds immense insight into the nature of how we can actually move forward here. The north node of the Moon (our karmic potential) acts like a compass guiding us forward.

The first thing to note here is that the ruler of the Node (Venus) is in Virgo, which is making an opposition to Chiron in Pisces. This means that we are being asked to discern from the illusions of separateness in the outside world, and to recognize what is fear-based consciousness and conditioning; to inwardly heal from such illusions by connecting the heart with the spirit; and to now start integrating these dimensions of our spiritual selves into alignment with our hearts.

Also, Pluto will be making squares to the Sun and Moon and Uranus. This alignment is reflecting to us the need to individuate ourselves, to question the underlying beliefs that have underpinned all prior actions, to detach from what one has created and the social sphere in which one participates. We will seek equality and demand justice. This is a wonderful opportunity to start showing up, speaking up, and expressing your originality.

As we are asked to share and express our new found beliefs, do not be disheartened by the voices expressing fear. Instead, use the awareness as a mirror to show you how much closer to love you have come. Feel and express that love and you will soon find that you are connected to a unified field of healing love energy.

We do not need to fight the negative, only to share our awareness through love. Connect to yourself and express your divinity! Let’s start building a world for ourselves and our children! Let’s purify ourselves of today’s distortions so that our children do not need to! Let’s connect to each other, all over the globe, to spread the word, spread the love and heal the pain.

Liberation and breaking free from the conditions of the unnatural laws and distortions of man-made authority are now being emphasized. The full phase inconjunct reflects limitations and feelings of entrapment. The Saturn function in Scorpio, inconjunct the nodal axis, reflected to us the deep truth that the distorted authority/powers are not letting go of their illusions of power.

This aspects will no doubt bring about frustration, anger, and powerlessness. This in turn will lead many people to eventually break down their false sense of faith in external authority, and induce the core-evolutionary intention of Pluto through Capricorn. That change and power comes from within. We need to be looking inwardly and forming a new relationship to ourselves; building new communities and developing a deep unifying connection to our fellow man.

This aspect supports and induces the action of the people taking back their power. This change can bring up strong feelings of insecurity as we take our first steps in a new direction. It is completely natural to experience this as we have nothing to attach ourselves to. We are stepping into the unknown, so to speak. It is new and fresh, and anxiety can be a part of this process. The paradox here is that, again, that lack of knowledge is the very thing driving us to discover what is out there.

On a more personal level, we are starting a new cycle, and self-discovery is the theme. Being reborn.

Step into the light! Feel your way! Be inspired!

Be the change!

from: http://wakeup-world.com/2014/09/24/new-moon-in-libra-fear-or-love/

Becoming a Source of Light

You are the healers, teachers, and leaders of this new age. You are here to bring through new information, ideas, healing tools, and love to whatever areas you choose to work in. You will be working in many fields, for the new consciousness needs to be built in every area of society. As you grow spiritually and awaken your inner light, you will become a source of light and awakening for others.

You, as your Higher Self, existed in higher dimensions of light before you chose to be born. To live on this planet, your Higher Self first created a spiritual body, and this became the model that set up your chakras, meridians, and energy systems. Then your Higher Self drew to your spiritual body your mental, emotional, and physical energy bodies.

Imagine that one day you put on many layers of shirts, trousers, and socks, then added to those several heavy sweaters and overcoats. How would you feel? This is what it feels like for your Higher Self to come into a physical body. You wonder why you feel so heavy at times! When your spirit leaves your body, you shed this shell and return to the formless essence of your Higher Self.

Since you were a child you may have felt you had a special purpose or mission.

Each of you was born with a special purpose, a unique role to play that no one else could fill. You have chosen to be at the forefront of the change that is coming, to contribute to building the new forms that will support a superconscious reality.

It is important to believe in your dreams; they are showing you your special purpose. If you haven't yet found your higher purpose, trust that everything you are doing is leading you to this higher path. You will have a greater awareness of what your special purpose is as you continue to grow.

You are ahead of your time.

You are the holders of the vision of what is possible for humanity to accomplish. You may have wondered why you think differently from others, or why you sometimes feel like you don't fit in as well as others. Some of the thoughts and ideas you have that are now uncommon and unusual will be the thoughts that bring about the changes to higher consciousness in years to come. You may be drawn to areas such as ecology, the peace movement, science, technology, psychology, metaphysics, or others that contribute to a new vision for humanity.

Imagine you are walking up a mountain. There are many people in front of you and many people in back of you. Now imagine that the beings ahead of you turn around and send you lines of light, love, and energy, lighting up your path and making your journey easier. You see with increasing clarity where you are going. Your footsteps become more sure. You are able to climb even faster. Now imagine turning around and sending out your light and wisdom to those behind you, broadcasting encouragement and knowledge of the path you have just tread.

One step behind you are hundreds of thousands who are awakening. Remember yourself as you were before you awoke to this path of growth. There are many, many thousands in the world who are at the point of awakening. They may not know yet where to turn or even what information to seek. They are just beginning to question, to listen, and to hear. As you lift the veils and wake up to your path and truth, you will be reaching out to assist them, and they in turn will be reaching out to others.

Humanity is in the process of making an evolutionary leap.

Your energy bodies are evolving; you are gaining a spiritual shimmer and new energies in your aura as you grow spiritually. Because the new human will have a body of light that is able to vibrate at a higher frequency and radiate light, you, your children, and your grandchildren will bring with them a transformation of consciousness beyond anything you can now imagine.

What you struggle so intently with now-to be more loving, to believe in yourself, to forgive, to have compassion, and to release pain and negativity-will be easier in future times as human energy systems become more evolved. Humanity will have a more fully formed body of light and will become a radiating source of light.

You are not on earth because you are too "low" to live in the higher dimensions. Your Higher Self has sent a part of itself-you-into this dimension to learn more about Its consciousness as expressed in a world of form and matter. Trust that you are here right now because it is the best place for you and offers you the most opportunity to evolve. As you grow and expand, your Higher Self grows and expands. Love your humanity as well as your divinity. What you experience in your daily life-the challenges, feelings, and relationships-are the very things you came to learn from.

The feelings and thoughts you have-all your humanness-offer you a rich and wonderful opportunity to grow and become a source of light to others. As you become more filled with light you assist humanity in reaching "critical mass." When enough people can hold and radiate a larger amount of light, everyone together will take a quantum leap and reach a new evolutionary phase. As more people expand, everyone will find it easier to be their Higher Selves and reach enlightenment. As more people learn to hold and radiate more light, it will be possible for many others to reach their full potential in this lifetime.

Orin & Daben, Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer excerpt from Spiritual Growth www.orindaben.com

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Mad Decent Block Party in AZ

i learned pants are now optional at music festivals. there were so many people just walking around with no pants on....it was wild

Monday, September 8, 2014

my saturday

coffee and a coconut by the pool

i was listening to this while i swam

& then i had some fun dancing around in these plantlife socks
i was really dancing to this song

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

If people are wise they cannot be exploited

“No society wants you to become wise, it is against the investment of all societies. If people are wise they cannot be exploited. If they are intelligent they cannot be subjugated, they cannot be forced in a mechanical life, to live like robots…They will have the fragrance of rebellion around them…” -Osho

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

aloha state

o hai, i finally got to be all kawaii in Hawaii

(press play)

(lulz) and by kawaii i mean chubby....

meh, i forgive myself for the extra chub (shrug) only because i spent so many years of my life training all hard and never relaxing.
my weight has always gone up and down, i once weighed in for a fight at 98lbs and another time i weighed in at 135. so i struggled with my body until i got divorced. that was a stressful and depressing time so i got skinny but just from being really unhealthy. it was a total lifestyle change. when my emotions died down and i got my appetite back i finally gave myself permission to relax and so i'm a lil chubby, for now what-ever. i'm happy as ever and i think that eventually i'll get sick the chub making me uncomfortable and want to start building muscle again.
but i do actually like how my boobs are bigger when i'm chubby. i definately feel more womanly but that is not really normal for me, i still think of myself as a tomboy...anyway i need to reinvent a healthy new 'normal' lifestyle for myself, blah blah blah

i have to say my favorite thing about Hawaii (besides the food) is that there are flowers EVERYWHERE. i loved that. i recently read somewhere that the molecular structure of flowers is naturally more complex than other parts of plants, so plants with flowers actually vibrate at a higher frequency than say plants with just leaves. so that thought hella added to the aloha vibes i was feelin.

the beach wasn't bad either. ;D

we started off with some nice cool drinks

then the food, the food, oooh all the glorious food!

pioneer saloon plate lunch

shabu shabu


garlic tuna steak, shrimp & fries

kalbi & eggs

guava chiffon pancakes

more garlic shrimps!

some ramen

avacado BLT w/ roasted garlic & bacon salad at fresh cafe before our hike at manoa falls

fried pork chops at Sidecar Inn

i took like 250 pics, half of them are dorkfaced selfies, but whatevz, you can look at on them on facebook click here

MAHALO Hawaii! i'll love you forever!